You did this

You did this to me

To find this weakness I have kept.
To know that for ever and ever I’ve wept

To summon these demons to my side,
Fear and doubt won’t break my pride

To nothing whatsoever, No shadow of hope
Your wistfulness ended with this rope

Think I don’t know what goes on in your head?
Dreaming, so peacefully, asleep in your bed,

Cringe and dissolve, this fear approved,
With those words of love, so deeply moved,

Frightened discoveries, forever in life,
Your wistfulness ended with this knife.

Surprising mysteries of doubt inside,
In the waking shadow my darkness will glide

Forever and ever I know I have wronged.
The truth in this ending, life not prolonged.

Devastation and wealth all roll into one
Your wistfulness ended with this gun

My eyes they close, heavy with dread
These stories of destruction fill my head

Twisted and tried I have a different right
To those who I knew that put up a fight.

To forget and to hold, No one ever still
Your wistfulness ended with this pill

Frightened for the living, happy for the dead,
And deprived for the poor who forever have fled,

It’s said and done, all the tides have turned,
In my mind all fear and depravity has burned.

Trivial problems, the frightened hearts thump.
Your wistfulness ended with this jump

Gravity of realizing what lies beneath
There is no forgetting, the same to grief

Aroused to the knowing of the wilfulness pain
To cry is the devil, just I am to blame.

It’s all just depression, frightened with power
Because you’re wistfulness ended in this very hour