Hiding

Hiding away from everyone
Backing away from my of life
Afraid of showing everyone
The marks made by the knife

So I am quitting school trips
And sleepovers with friends
Until I feel entirely content
That this has come to an end

It is saving me from the trouble
But I can’t always be this way
I can’t hide behind my ruined life
Like I have been every single day

I’m still hiding away my feelings
Don’t want to show the real me
I’m so afraid that if you find out
You will reject what you will see

I constantly am avoiding my parents
Although they are always there
Forever following my every move
Always pretending that they care

The teachers never truly see me
Or not the me I thought to be
So I am failing all my classes
None of them understand me

I’m hiding from this life
The one I have grown to hate
I don’t want to leave this safety
So alone I sit and wait