SOmetimes

SOmetimes i feel
so utterly depressed
like my life
has no meaning
i feel so hollow
empty inside
crying
screaming
dying
is how i feel
waitng for that one person or thing
that will put that light back in my eyes
and then i realize
that maybe i will never get that
maybe i will never be truly happy
just there
not moving
not breathing
not really being
im sick of all the tears
my swollen eyes
can bare no more
i feel like i
should just
crawl up and...
die.
maybe then i would be happy
maybe then i would finally feel something
if i take that knife and watch the blood pour out
is that what living should feel like?
is that how i will spend the rest of my days?
lonely
broken inside
I feel like no one is there
when really there are those who care.
I hate feeling this way
but I can't help it and I do.
I feel like there is no way to turn
left or right
they lead in the same direction
to all my fears
all of my worst feelings
all swirling around me
utterly confused
not sure of what to do
where to go
I feel like I should just make it all stop
If I let it go deep enough
maybe it'll all just go away
maybe the pain will subside
and I will be at peace
at least for sometime...