Death You Love Everlasting

I used to see you and step aside
The knowledge I had leant burnt my soul
I trusted myself to stick by my decision
Didn’t consider I knew not the whole

And then you knew I’d found your secret
And away you took me to your home
To a watchful eye that never slept
And yet let me be free to roam

I tell you the truth; I feared you
I saw no reason for such affliction
I saw what I saw and knew what I knew
And I drew no doubts of your conviction

Blackmail you used though I now know why
You spoke little that did not echo through my spine
I had no knowledge of this secret spy
I never dreamt you'd be mine

Slowly but gradually you released some truth
I trusted you, which shocked me the most
You talked more often and shared ideas
I was unafraid of my dark host

You brought me books that made me cower
As I read that that was contained within
The effort to read letters struggled
As I realised this book was a sin

For I read the forbidden words of a forbidden art
The twists in my heart grew frightened
But you still helped me through it
Curiosity heightened

You showed me a way to see deep within a mind
And let me draw on the skill
And yet by accident it came into action
I never intended to kill

Bu the past is the past but I can’t lay it down
For I found myself like you
The Lords discovered our hidden depths
They refused to believe our words were true

I spoke only the truth at that hearing
How it came to be that I’d learned
Why I had chosen to do so
But they asked only what punishment I’d earned

Two lone figures cast out, exiled
It was here I started to think
Of this man I was travelling with
More when he saved me from the brink

Landscapes thrust themselves upon us
The realization we were being followed
It was late that night, nearer the new day
That we were pushed together and hollowed

I loved you then, in one moment you knew too
The force of that first kiss
We believed life could go on even now
If only all our days had been like this

Our trail was picked up by some watcher
We tried to evade even further
That night set others alight
That was the night we saw her

We were behind the waterfall, wrapped in each others arms
She came to drink by the lake
We froze, quite startled, with no escape
But we stayed still, not one sound did we make

We circled and returned to our homeland
And we fought the secret battles, those hidden
Dark hours just hoping we could make it right
But only with a skill forbidden

The last stand came suddenly
And we fought together bravely
You sent me more than you could give
Our friends stood watching gravely

I forget how much I cried
Losing someone I’d hated before
I kept reliving my lessons
Lessons I cannot have anymore

The friends stared at the remains of the city
But I saw just one face
Tears blurred you all over
We could no longer embrace

You gave me more than I wished to take
But in your last moment you smiled
I was left weeping before the others
Broken, distraught, lost my sense of the wild

Love hurts so much I ask myself was it worth it
I need no answer; I would have taken your place
So now as I stare at the first wooden grave
I see only a dark figure, a lacy outline, carrying my grace

**Not sure where to place this,
its \'love\' \'sadness\' and \'dark\'

I\'ve gone with dark because of the slight fantasy but i wasn\'t sure**