Memories

I was sitting in class
Learning about sex education
The subject Aids and HIV came around
And I held back the thought of you

The teacher put on the movie for the lesson
And they started talking about aids
Then a girl started talking about what she goes through for having aids
I started having memories of you

Here I sat
Watching the movie
Memories flooding back to me
Memories I kept deep inside myself

I never really thought of you
I knew if I did, it would bring to much pain
I knew I couldn't handle the thought of you
But the memories came flooding back

I sat crying my eyes out
Watching the video
I understood a few things a little more
But the memories just hurt me alot!

You died two days before your birthday
You would have turned 37 years old
I remember your funeral
The memories of everything wouldn't stop coming

I may have been very young
I may have not known anything back then
But now I'm older
I know more things now

You were my favorite person
I loved you very much
I always looked up to you
I always wanted to be with you

Every time you came to the office
I would run to you and bring a book along
You used to pick me up
You used to read to me

But then the enemy came
The enemy that took you away from us
The enemy that hurt me so dearly
The enemy that left me with so many painful memories.

Years went by
The memories of you was hidden away
The memories I hide because of the pain
The memories that I hated so dearly

Until today
I refused to think about you
I refused to think about the memories
But there was one thing I didn't get to tell you

One thing that I may never get to tell you
I never told you
"I love you"
And now I sit with memories flooding back to me
Of you my dearest Uncle Mark Wynn Dearing.