The Result of Talking

I never believed that it would happen

The moment I stepped into the room
I had to say something

As I glanced at their faces
The hurt was too much
I broke

A silence
As they examined my confession
The disappointment in their eyes
I couldn’t say anything more

And I showed them my heart
A scar, a mark, a scab
As they cried out loud
The shame I felt
I began protesting

They reached out
And tried to touch me
A hand of love and sorrow
As they sympathized
The anger that welled in me
I hated them

But they were too late
They tried too late
And loved too late
A moment too late
As they realized it was too late
The fury in my bones broke
I can’t forgive them for their inadequacies

They want to help now
And they want to love me now
A cold nothing
As they satisfy themselves as well
The insanity in my mind
I can’t understand it anymore

And they think I knew what they said when they moved their lips
A mutual understanding
As I stood silently
The wonder at how ignorant they were
I couldn’t do anything but what they said

A sudden, irrational thought
As I watched them wreck my life
The mistakes I made they try to fix
I can’t change the past

As I cry inside my mind
The realization I made things worse by speaking
I make up my mind

The problems that resulted are too much for me
I just want to go back to the way things were

I never believed that it would happen