Once again I am all alone in my room
I see my tears slide down my pale face
I thought this was over, slowly recovering
Depression is not something easily replaced
So I am back shedding tears all by myself
Afraid of the future, and what it may hold
So tired of living this life any longer
No one will be able to see me grow old
I have put and end to hurting myself
But instead I find that I am hurting you
So this time I will end it, tight round my neck
Sit back and watch as my face turns blue
I thought I could do it, I counted the seconds
But I can’t go through with it, I’m too weak
I’m dead already, to dead to die now, already gone
Its answers not attention that I always seek
Hit me, please hurt me, do not sit back and watch
Please hurt me, like I hurt you every day
Each tear I cry is like a dagger through your heart
I just wish that I could find another way
I don’t cry with blood now, I have stopped I promise
I want to go back to that life I had before
I’ve stopped cutting and slashing, I promise
But I have found that my tears can hurt more
