State of Me

This is the State of "Me,"
[I just met the police]
Always questioned "Home,"
Years ago, realizing I was alone
[Almost ended it]
And I still think about it
But I discovered "Life" a little bit,
This is now,
[I hate myself]
Hate my single-mother,
Hate my little-brother,
[Horrible as it sounds]
I know that i have "Friends,"
But then again,
I also have a shrink
He said I was full of anger,
And too much arrogance,
[Wonderful ain't it?]
I got enough jealousy
For the people always leaving me,
Confusion, "Do you care?"
Is it because daddy was never there?
"You're moving out!"
Thats what she always said,
Staying, leaving...
[It really hurt my head]
All these problems,
Are they worth fighting?
And am I weak because I keep on hiding?
A new life, suicide,
[It's a shame I never tried]
Maybe if I never lied,
Maybe I would've died,
But when push comes to shove,
Everytime I've chosen love,
[Or a hope thereof]
So now, in my conclusion,
My grand resolution,
Do I stay?
Do I dare?
Is it right?
[I'll forget fair]
Should I run away,
My bags are packed,
I want to stay,
If only....
[But you embrace me coldly]