Downhearted

Never did I think I would be sitting here,
Typing my one-millionth sorrowful poem.
Trying to hold back all my salty tears,
Lonelier than ever cos no love has been shown.

Been forcing myself to believe that I’m fine.
But in reality I’m falling all over the place.
I pray to god that things will turn out all right.
If only he would discontinue playing kid games.

I just feel too unloved on this damn day.
Choking with anger close enough to scream.
I can’t help to pace around and complain.
How could I let him open wounds he made in me?

God knows I love him with everything I have.
And there he shuts me out of his life.
I’m trying to hold on and somehow laugh,
But every time I think of him I start to cry.

Its him who I can not stop yearning for.
And my voice within won’t stop screaming.
He just got me f-ing twisted and sore.
I just feel like soon he’ll be leaving.

I have never felt this way ever before.
And that is what scares me the most.
I have never fallen so deep for a guy,
I’m going crazy at this point………