I am 14 and thinking about My Wedding

I think about who I want to marry.
I watch him from a far.
He has no clue I even am living.
I want him to see me.
I want to marry him, but I can't when I am "only" a friend.
I love you yet you do not care.
I await the day I walk down the isle to see him.
I will smile as soon as I see him stand there.
I want him for my husband, but I am "only" a friend.
He flirts with me and I flirt back it is not fair.
I love him and want him for my husband I wish he could how I care for him.
He dated a girl that is ugly and mean.
So what is wrong with me?
I have dreams he is standing wait for me to walk down the isle.
Then wake up and he is not there.
This is not fair.
I can not take it anymore, yet I can't give up on him.