R.I.P (Gary)

I didn’t know that you could miss someone
As much as I truly miss you
I miss all of the small things
I wonder if you miss me too

I think about your last day
I wonder if you were scared
I wonder if on your death bed
You finally let all your secrets bared

I had to hear about your death
From someone I hardly knew
And I don’t know your last words
But I know that I really miss you

Gary, Please rest in peace
Life is tough and you showed it well
Just slip God a note from me,
Or ask him if earth is any different from hell

What can hurt more
Than the death of a friend
What can be worse than loving someone
Up until their end

Please Gary, Tell me you died in peace
So that I can finally breathe
I have much more to do in life
And all I’m doing now is grieve

I miss the way you smiled
I miss your clear blue eyes
I miss the way you said my name
Now all I have is the sky

I don’t get you to talk to
I don’t know what to do or say
All I want you to know
Gary, I miss you in every way

But you know what really hurts
You will never get to be a dad
Never have a wife or kids
That realization stings so bad
You deserved more
And even though you were strong
I wish that you were here with me
Is that wish so wrong

I know that God will keep you safe
And I know I will see you some day
And when I do I will finally be at peace
In every single way

***I wrote this as well as another poem
for Gary. He was shot and killed. He
was 16. ~I hope you rest peacefully***