The Girl

I sit up in the darkness and look in the mirror
I touch the glass, but it's too blurry to see
The reflection there is a stranger of me

Just months ago it seems I started to slip
I ran before walking and I lost my grip

I couldn't see it day to day
I was consumed by a life
Fun from the daylight as i bleed at night

I don't want to leave now, it's not time to go yet
Just one more sniff so I can forget
Just one more line, Just one more beer
Are my famous last words that I never hear

Passing out cold is now normal to me
As sleep through these dreams that I can't see
Because not long ago it was that I started to fall
But whose shadow is that I see down the hall?

I'm living in this tunnel as darkness surrounds
Im losing my balance and I can't find the ground

As I look at my eyes, they aren't mine it seems
They don't sparkle or glow
Just sunken holes buried by defeated dreams

How do I heal all the damage i've done?
Do I put both feet on the floor?
This time, do I walk before I run?

I'm hitting rock bottom and the floor caves through
And I see
I have an existence of living with nothing to do

I sit up in the darkness and look at my face
I've lost myself now
Wanting to go home, but not knowing how

When I think about the face that I used to see, I remember they'd say...
She's got it together and she's got a future
But when they look in my eyes, they just shake their heads
They see another girl broken, another girl dead

I look back at this girl and I reminisce,
But does the girl I remember really exists?