Last regrets of a broken child

Why cry for someone already lost?
Living life was too high a cost.
I'm sorry for wanting to die,
I'm sorry you never got a goodbye.

There was so much i wanted to let you know,
Like why i needed so much to go,
I wish i could have back just a day,
To tell you all i meant to say.

These past few months all i wanted was to be dead,
To escape the painful thoughts running through my head,
Bled and bled, till I'd bleed no more,
The world went black and i dropped to the floor.

Can you appreciate what it is too feel,
You're hurt too bad to try and conceal or to ever heal,
When there's no hope in a world of pain,
And relief comes when you slice a vein.

Call me ungrateful, call what you will,
I know there's people out there worse off and living still,
But this is the only life I've ever had,
And it's only ever made me sad.

I needed my knife,
Me the former resident of life,
Another victim of self pity and hate,
Life really wasn't that bad but i realized too late.