Hearing-Impaired

Sitting, staring out the window
Unaware if it is day or night
I don’t want to open up this door
Because I am losing this big fight

No longer can I stand up tall
Or be a brave girl like before
I want to get up and walk out of it
But the pain is hurting even more

For the memories keep coming
Driving me insane, haunting my mind
My body has already moved on
But my soul is still left behind

And my heart is torn to pieces
Scattered everywhere in this place
The key you must have thrown away
Because it has left without a trace

The only thing that helps me out
Is this blade sitting on my bed
Which both took and saved my life
Leaving me here half way dead

It beats me to all of my control
Absorbing every bit of pain
And although it’s wrong, still it works
Throwing my tears down the drain

Voices tell me I am a gorgeous girl
Calling me utterless perfection
How perfect can I really be
If my face has no reflection

Ironically I live on with these lies
Building themselves like a cancer spread
Unintentionally I was brought here to suffer
Better off knowing that I am dead

For there I once had a father
And a mother who really cared
Soon the dreamboat disappeared
And now my life is a nightmare

A nightmare is what I will always live
For nothing else will never be
I am a half-dead, broken girl
Hearing-Impaired to my own silent plea