Forgive me

I no you feel all cold
i used to feel the same way to
that is until i met you
the answer to my prayers.

until i met you i had no hope
until you my soul was dead
until you my only friend was my blade
then you smiled at me.

our friendship grew each day
and i began to truly rely less on my blade
i loved you more than i can ever say
that is until you went away.

for months i lost touch with you
i turned back to my damned knife
and each new day that passed more of my love would turn to hate
until i found out why.

we thought we would always be together
i hate that thats not true
but you i no longer hate
instead its him i do.

he robbed me of my saviour
the only one who truly knew me
he took away all i had and ever wanted
all because he couldn't handle his drink.

as i stand over your grave now i am filled with guilt
i hated you not calling me and only now know it was my fault
you see i was the one who drove that car, who couldnt handle his drink
i am the one who ended your life, yours and mine that night.

ironic you were the one i was rushing home to see
yet when i found you i kept going
where ever you are please forgive me
your stupid husband to be