Because I loved you

I close the door, because you walked out
I scream out in a silent scream, because there is no one to hear it
I hold myself, because there is no one to hold me
I start to cry meaningless tears, because there is no one to see
I whisper to myself "it's OK", because there is no one to comfort me
I dream of a better day, because all I have is cold night
I thought it all was fine, because it wasn't
I was to close to you, because you where so distant to me
I prayed to god in thanks for you, because you cursed my name to hell
I wanted to be so much more than this, because I am useless
I didn't make you happy, because I wasn't good enough for you
I needed only you, because you needed someone else
I would give everything for you, because you would give nothing for me
I never lied to you, because you betrayed me
I threw it all away, because I demanded the truth
I will never trust again, because I trusted you
I suffer in pain, because I loved you
I despair now, because I tried to give us hope
I am lost, because I cannot find myself
I don't understand, because no one understands me
I feel broken, because I can never bring us back together
I cannot see, because I am blinded by loss
I no longer care anymore, because there is no one to care for me
I try not to breath, because I have no wish to live
I take my life, because I feel dead
I die in anguish, because all I ever wanted was a life with you