Leave me to it

Look at me and see my scars
just for once see me as they are
don't ask questions about the pain
don't look at me with disgust again
just let me lie here, let me be
and maybe someone vulnerable you'll see
you judge my cuts without the fear
you don't understand why I'm lying here
with blood on the blade, blood on my hand
I'm fading away from a life I can't stand
I'm not as tough as I might seem
I'm terrified of being seen
I like to hide all on my own
but now I hate it, I hate going home
look at my scars, don't be afraid
they're self inflicted, cuts I have made
I've never sliced deep enough to die
as you label me these tears I cry
if you knew the truth you'd be surprised
these are real tears falling from my eyes
all I'm showing you is my thoughts inside
all the hate for myself that makes me hide
so look at me and calmly say
that you don't care, thats just my way
its how I cope, how I release
now leave me to it, let me be me