Jars of me

As i lie here dead
with no more thoughts in my head
no more pain to hold
no more lies shall be told
you all can see me with these jars
that helped me some what make it this far

Heres a jar with all my tears
the jar Ive held for so many years
Ive cried out all thats gone on
all the depression Ive held all along
the jar that was here when i was hurt
it made things better never worse
the jar that let me get out my feelings
the jar the tears made cuts worth healing

Heres the jar that holds the pain
the jar thats filled with things unexplained
the jar thats connected with the knife
that helped me do this, end my life
the jar that held beautiful but dangerous matters
the jar that couldn't help anything get better
the jar that held my self esteem and furry
the jar that had nothing but worry

Heres the jar that keeps the lies
that Ive held behind my eyes
the jar that hide my masked disguise
the jar that helped me want to die
the jar that kept this ugly face from being seen
the jar that held all i was being

Heres the jar that holds my dreams
the jar that no one has yet seen
the jar that was nothing but undone
nothing was yet not accomplished because my life is done
that jar that held my hard to learn thoughts
from what i knew to whats was taught

heres the jar that fills with blood
the jar full of red fluid
the blood from when i used the knife
a step closer to ending this life

Heres the jar that hold my heart
in little pieces because it was many times torn apart
the heart that beats the color black
the jar who wishes everything it had was back

Heres the jar that holds the truth
the jar Ive always wanted to use
the jar that holds nothing but me
the jar didn't let anyone see
the jar that you are about to know
cover your eyes you don't want to know
the jar that hold this ugly me
the jar none of you will believe
the jar that admits and confesses
its tells all my horrible messes

Heres the jar with the blades
that i used to make life fade
the blades that made all the deep lines
the blade that controlled my insane mind
the jar that took away all the pain
the jar that standed low and tamed
the blade that for so long helped me stand tall
the blade that ended it all

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