I Once Thought...

I once thought I could make it
Now I am begging myself to stay
The mirror shows what I can’t be
How I cannot live for another day

I once thought that it was a dream
And quickly this pain would fade
But now I see we couldn’t handle
All the promises that were made

For maybe once I was in real love
But now I am left with only pain
The tears that flood my eyes and
All the blood that makes my rain

I once thought hurting would pass
Yet it seems to linger in my heart
Tears and a fake smile is all I have
Since my whole world fell apart

I once thought I could forget it
Go past everything we used to be
The smiles and all the warm hugs
They refuse to set my mind free

For maybe once I had it so well
I held the world in one bare hand
But then a storm took it all away
One that destroyed all of my land