Good bye

I cant believe I did it again
I put myself in this position again
Over and over like a Ferris wheel
I’m used to the pain but this one has some zeal
Something’s different I don’t quite know what
But something tells me it’s because I’ve been called a $lut
It’s getting worse I can’t control myself
I want to cut I think I need some help
But the slashing and slicing brings me such joy
It’s better than Christmas when you get a new toy
I look at my scars remembering the past
Remembering what happened and I thought it wouldn’t last
Thinking of the pain they all put me through
Wishing my life could change wishing anew
Wishing I could just die and say goodbye to you
But wishing and hoping wont take me anywhere
Because only making actions will take me there
So I decided to end it to end it all
Now its time for everyone to watch me fall
I’m taking my life and no one can stop me
Nothing they can say or do will ever stop me
I think I’m better off this way
Just leaving and only having one thing to say,
“Good-bye to the world and everything inside
For now I must go and with nothing left to hide
I don’t regret what I’m about to do
For no thoughts in my head making me think about you
So now it’s time for my final curtain call
And to lie in the dirt and decay like a dirty shower stall”
For my last few minutes are coming to an end
For I’ve slashed my wrists and thinking of only friends
Looking at the blood falling to the ground
And watching my body be drowned
My sight has become blurry I can’t really see anymore
And my eyes are getting heavy and drifting to the floor
My body is numb I feel so empty
So gone and so wasted I completely agree
That this was the right choice no asking why
For now I must say my final good bye…