Promises

I can’t stop thinking about you; you’re constantly in my head,
Part of me wants you out and part of me wants you dead
I use to think that you cared for me so, but now I know that it was just all for show
You walked around like everything was all right that you and me were perfectly right
You thought you were slick that you could play me like that,
Thinking that after we were over that you could just come and flip me like a hat
You were my first and I don’t regret it, but the fact that you lied made me never forget it
I thought you were truthful that you would never lie but after this moment I want you to die
I want you to suffer, like the way I did
What you put me through I was like one of those beat up kids
I thought going for another guy would take you of my mind
But it only made me think about what we used to have
I really hate life I don’t want live, look what you’ve done you’ve made me do it again
My arms are thrashed, more than you know I remember that day I said I wouldn’t do it anymore I remember that promise that I made to you that day, that I wouldn’t drink or cut or even smoke, I said okay!? After we were over you still got mad that I went back to my old habits you made me feel bad. You cant tell me what I can or cannot do you don’t own me like you used to. I guess I’m almost over you except for the fact that I’m righting this poem about you, I fell for you almost told you I loved you but I guess I was too late, now I know that it wasn’t fate. Well I guess this is good-bye, we’ll never have what we had it’ll be hard to see you with other girls but what am I supposed to do, all I can do is say I love you…