My Blood in the sky

OK people listen up
I'll tell you whats up

I know I hurt so many people
and I wish I didn't
but please listen anyway
if you were hurt by me
in each and every new day
I couldn't see

That I hurt these people
I made you cry
I made you mad
I really thought you were glad

But I have been had
I didn't see the sorrow
I didn't see your tears

I didn't know you were sad
How could I fix this
I am not sure theres a way
but I know I'll have to pay

only because I was in love
but as I cry I think different
you were a angle sent from above

I never notice the things I did
all the things I hid
my whole life is a mistake
and its not because of you
its because things I do

My life was nothing new
each day was the same
although you were still in pain
my whole life has been a game

and no its not you
its me of which I speak of
I never cry ed so much
I never bled so much
until this fourth day of July

It started out the same
but at the end
I begin to cry
thinking I want to die

I have a lot of friends
thats not the problem
and its not them
its about what I've done

What I really I am trying to do
is ask for your forgiveness
I hope you don't have to much agreeness

I know what I did was wrong
but now that you are gone
its just to much to bare
my heart just tares

I know what I am going to do
I don't know about you
But I want to feel
that pain you was once in
and before I begin

I want you to know my brain is confused
now that I abused the power of love

so let me start with this knife
this was my life
but I am ashamed

so I rather not live anymore
as I watch that knife
go down my arm
I thought it was a charm
but it did bring you into harm

I can feel it already
I know its deadly
I love to watch my blood and let it flow till it floods
that knife of mine cut
a eight inch gash
he he its only a inch deep
so don't weep

I just wanted you to know before I go
That your not a h oe
and that things I said
that were so mean
that were so unfair

Even though we were once a pair
you may not care
but I am not sure
how long I am going to last

and yes you did past
that test of mine
but I am going to be left behind

Thats ok its alright
its what I get
for being a jerk

So don't ever forget all the small things
I once said to you
and before I fade away
I just want you to know
that I am sorry

so on every fourth
when you see red in the sky
I hope you cry
I hope it remembers it of my blood

Thank you for your time
and now its my time
for me to let you go
Good bye
happy fourth
in the north