My freshman year

by cowgirlstar26   Jul 13, 2005


My freshman year was gonna be great I said as I went that first day
But I had no idea all the horrible things people would say

being home schooled I was never ridiculed
but my freshman year I was gonna be cool

I started to cut again and I started to smoke
all the things I did I used to revoke

I became a *lut but it wasn't enough
Everyone thought I was so strong and tough
With the voice of an angel and the grades to impress I never thought
I wouldn't be blessed

the glory seemed to fade and I became weak
everything I built was slowly looking bleak

my wrist were scared and my grades begun to fall
I didn't care, I didn't want anymore phone calls

these people weren't my friends, they could really care less
so when I tried to end it all
no one even watched me fall

they left me to die in my solom place
with all my beauty but without my grace

I laid on the floor with my bleeding wrist
I started to cry for my ended bliss

My friend walked in and screamed in horror they brought me to the hospital took me through the doors

I went back to school with my wrist in a cast
then the rest of the year I was the lowest outcast

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  • 18 years ago

    by dragonfly

    Omg...you won't believe this, i wasn't the girl in the poem but i was her friend. Although my friend...huh i don't know why i'm telling you this, but mabey it will help you...My freshman year was gonna be great too...or so i thought, it was a chance to start over...

    My friends and i were always slighty suicidal, but that year my friend took over 80 pills in an hour...She wrote me note like she always promised she would she ever did this, so that i may have the chance to say goodbye and be with her so she wasn't alone when she died. However when i received the note, i was so...scared...i went and found her (i had to pull her out of class), and we talked then i freaked out and told her i was going to go tell someone...but i went and got a friend instead (it was her friend to) and we sat there and watched her as she slowly began to die, and suddenly she realized this meant she would be leaving us and so she became scared.

    We went and found someone to help us, and followed her to the hospital...we were there when the doctors asked her all the questions, she looked at me and i answered them. Her family was in tears and her silent i had to tell them she was going to be fine, i was the first person she called when they tried to take her away...and the first person to swear to kill the man who locked her up in a mental hospital, it was a scary and twisted start to the worst year of my life...It was the start of many *shameful* acts that i wish not to mention, but shes alive and our friendship is Stroner! Thats what friends are for, to pick you up when you fall...

  • 18 years ago

    by Lu

    So sad that so many teenagers go through this sort of thing but yet it falls on blinded eyes and deafened ears .
    I read a girls poem this week that inspired me to write "trauma of a teenage life" Keep up the writing and someday someone will be helped just by the writing of this poem .

  • 18 years ago

    by Kelsey

    wow. that was awesum. gives me sumthin 2 look forward to this year at school. just kiddin. but i do kno how u feel especially moving from home school to school period. but it was very interesting. thanks for commenting on mine! keep it up and stay strong!
    love always
    kelsey

  • 18 years ago

    by Andrea

    very interesting. kinda depressing but the rhyming and wording was good

  • 18 years ago

    by Andrea

    awwww very very sad!

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