No Good

How can I tell you how I feel
If I honestly am not sure myself?
Could it be I am numb of feeling
Or is it just caused by my confusion?

How can I open up to you
When I’m so closed up to start?
I am failing, and I know I should do more
Seeing as you continue to do anything and everything you can for me
Even though all the "help" you try to give... we, in reality, cannot afford

I don’t mean to be selfish or self-serving
I don’t mean to appear callous or unfeeling
I know I am not self-sustaining; I could not be without your help
No matter what you say; I would not die, but life would be ten times as hard without… undoubtedly…without you I wouldn't have survived...not this much....

I’m just no good in person, face-to-face
I am simply better fit for cyber space
Where I am not so entirely restricted by what is surfaced