Daddys Girl

I know he loves me..
Sometimes I wonder why..
Why he did what did..
Why he said good bye..
I know he'll back soon..
But its been a long wait..
And still I'm here counting till the date..

He was never around.. cept when he had to be..
I don't remember him at any birthday parties..
I cant remember the last time I hugged him..
Or the last time he smiled..
He made some bad choices..
Thats why hes been gone awhile..
I Hope hes changed now..

That life pulled him under..
I wonder why he did it If he loved me so much..
He tells me all the time
He loves me..
He writes me often
Calls once a year...

If only he knew of all my tears..
I'm scared it will be different..
I'm scared I have changed..
I wont be his Daddy's girl..
Hes caused me to much pain..

I used to think it was my fault..
I broke up our family..
But now I know it wasn't
How could I think it was me?
It was her and her drugs that kept him all gone..

Well Was it worth it daddy?
To lose your little girl?
Me and mommy moved on now..
In this crazy big world..
Yes we left you behind..
And I'm sorry we did..

If you didn't do them evil things..
You'd be right here with us..
You brought it on yourself..
No ones to blame..
You caused your little girl pain..

I'm all grown up now.. you should really see..
I'm 15 now daddy.. theres 5 years you haven't seen..
I'm different now.. I've changed some how..
I wish you were here with me..
To watch me grow..

I have so much to show you..
I cant wait till your home..
Last time I saw you was behind that dirty glass..
I cant wait to hug you at last..
Christmas is coming late this year..
Were all waiting till your here..

I hope you've changed.. and I hope your better now..
I hope you still love me daddy..
I know you do some how..
I love you daddy...I Really do..
But you have to stop..
Doing those things you do..