Even If

You were the one for me by far,
You helped me heal every scar,
You help me look at my life positively,
Instead of my continuous negativity,

You were everything good in my life,
I couldn't see myself without you,
The tool I used for so long a knife,
You help me let go of the feelings so blue,

Without you I can't see beyond the next day,
I can't ever feel the same way,
About someone else again,
Now I’ve experience this love I gained,

I don’t regret anything,
Not one moment I spent,
With you I could be myself I could even sing,
But it all got taken away so fast so bent,

I want you back although it won’t come true,
I’ve been hurt to much not only by you,
My best mate betrayed the forsaken trust,
I felt I had no other choice but break up I must,

I feel I can't go on because you’re no longer there,
Nor trust or speak to another man just the same,
What I had with you was so special and cared,
But you played with my heart to loves unfair game,

Seeing you both together hurts me so much,
I can't even bear being touched,
By anyone else but you, you touched my soul’s core,
Just one wish to hug or kiss you once more,

I can't let go and I never will,
You will forever be in my heart like a sunset upon the sea,
I shall always be there to lean on and love I always will,
Even if you can't be there to love me.

Dedicated to Michael, I will always love you.

©Samantha Jayne Reed
Wrote on July 27th, 2005