Love and pain

3-05-2005 06:17:21 (GMT)

Love and pain
What?
They’re not the same?
Either way
The love I have lost
The pain I have gained
How much have I learned?
Playing this silly game
How much longer shall I live till I can wash the day away?
I have wasted so much time
I still hate the feeling of grey
As the pessimists say
The cup will always be half empty
Things will never be the same
I cannot stop my own suffering
But am I the cause?
Tell me, who is to blame?
Is it even possible to rid this shame?
I don’t see how any can be rid away
I cannot do the same
As the One above
What would He say?
That is one of many problems
I have to this day
I have told Him my story
I have prayed, waited, and prayed
I have looked for answers
Asked for prayers
Tried to listen
But it seems I have lost my ears
Because I do not hear any answers
I hear no other voice
In this so called dialogue
With the one I am supposed to love
Above all
Supposed to pull through the long hall
So how am I to know the right?
Some say I’ll know
But I doubt they’re right
People can so easily lie to themselves
Tell them selves they’re doing it for Him
But it’s nowhere near the same
They cannot tell the difference and
Fall into sin
Using the excuse of saying it was His will...

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I wrote this a while ago, and it's another that remains unfinished...I didn't know where it was going...