Nobody knows

No one knows
The exact pain I’m in
The exact tears I cry
No one knows how I suffer within

I hide the wounds
I hide the tears
I hide everything from the world
No one knows how much pain I have within me

I smile
I laugh
To put on a fake show
But I don’t think I can keep putting on a show

When I laugh
I cry on the insides
When I smile
I just want to vanish

I live in the shadows of my pain
I walk in the shadows of what I bury from everyone
I cry in the shadows of what I am
I cry in the shadows of the darkness where I belong

Vanishing from everyone I once knew
I cannot cause them heartbreak
Vanishing from everyone I once knew
I cannot make them miserable

Walking in the shadows
Of my past
Of my future
No one knows of but me