Anorexia

Look at me, for once see the truth
don't just see the smile I use on you
see the pain burn in my eyes
see that I starve myself to change my size

watch my eyes and see the strength
its not easy you know, going to such lengths
see the decidedness as I eat only half
watch my hands find fat, hide behind my scars

see what I see when I look in the mirror
don't look amazed as its warm and I shiver
don't be surprised as my lack of confidence shows
as my body gets thinner I feel tighter in my clothes

slowly moving my obsessions over my body and face
I always feel so lonely, and so out of place
for once just see me in all my complexity
don't just see me as mental, see my vulnerability

thats all I am, a hurting lonely girl
taking out on her body the hate she feels for the world
finding in starvation something found nowhere else
I found the root of my problems, I truly hate myself

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