I caught a glimpse

I looked in the mirror, and just for once I saw me
with the tears streaming down my wet cheeks
and arms wrapped around this little girl
sat alone in her room, alone in the house
crying

for once I didn't see fat, but vulnerability
weakness in the tears
weakness that couldn't hide anymore
a need of care, a need of love, a need of reasurrance
that for once everything will be ok

sitting crying I saw myself,
not who I hate or who I wish I was
but who I am
I am a lost little girl
alone
hiding behind the face of someone smiling but guarded
and yet through the tears, just for a while,
I caught a glimpse of the real me