Giving up...

Why not me, what have I done?
All this waiting is not fun
Why can't I be just like you?
And find love that is true

Was I born to suffer
My life seems to get tougher
Battling a brick wall
At the end of the very long hall

Everyone is so happy
This just can't be happening
My life falling down around my feet
A life that was so bitter sweet

Darkness take my hand
And lead my away to your lonely land
Or am I there already?
As it is so very pretty

Are there other lonely people like me?
Hoping, praying that we can be free
But your bars are cold and hard
And are very tough to break apart

I welcome my end but fear what lies ahead
But staying here is something more to dread
I'm scared to be alone forever
Watching other people so happy together

This world is so cruel and horrible
The pain it causes is really terrible
Unforgiving, never changing
Especially when it has been raining

I'm still here, to afraid to go forward
Knowing darkness is all I go toward
Trapped in a never ending struggle
Lost and alone in the rubble

At night I wonder if there's anything left
Of my life after my innocence theft
I have nothing to live for
Open wounds that are still so raw

I take a deep breath and prepare myself
Knot the rope around the shelf
Fit the end around my neck
Planned so perfectly it can not be wrecked

Tears are streaming
In my head I am screaming
Goodbye to all, I will see you there
At that pretty place in the air

*A work of fiction, but somedays I wish I could give in*