In the silence you hear my pain

I’m lying here sobbing
On a solid wood floor
I cry to the heavens
Please god no more

I cut myself regularly
Almost every night
And struggle through every day
Trying to make it right

I throw up my feelings
After every meal
Cutting and vomiting
Just trying to feel

I want to make the pain for once
Instead of someone else
And by just doing that
This is where I’ve gotten myself

The lowest place in my life
That I thought I could ever be
Is right here where I am
I feel like this is it for me

Will tomorrow be better?
Or will it drag on like today?
Will pain wash over me?
Or slowly fade away?

Will friends and family
Finally be able to recognize
All the things I’m dealing with
The pain deep within my eyes?

I run to the bathroom
Get down on my knees
Put my finger down my throat
Someone help me please

Now I’m heading back
Into my little room
I’m getting out my precious razor
The pain is over soon

I want death to come sometimes
Yet I’m scared of it all the same
And if you’re listening closely
In the silence you’ll hear my pain

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