False Judgement

Everybody,
you think that I\'I'mperfect
you think i have it all
all i could ever need to be happy
the cheerleader, the grades, the house, the clothes.
The boyfriend who lies and cheats on me.

You sit back and look at me like an animal in a cage
examining every aspect of my life judging me and talking like you actually know. I know that i hurt you, i know i hurt aalotof you with my comment or actions I'm nothing more than any of you. i spent so much time making everything its not, Ive spent my life being something I'm not

I'm sorry to you all, i wish i could take back the pain i caused you all but i cant. so tonight i sit here and realize that my whole life is a lie, one big lie that i cant change. i have hurt to many people i have lied to many. so i sit here writing this to tell you all how sorry i am an i hope you know i was only jealous of what you had. i had things that years from now would mean nothing. you had TRUE friends, and the parents that loved you unconditionally

i cant change my life i cant turn it around. i have spent this whole life making something fake of it

tonight is the last night i cry and scar my self, tonight the scars are permanent i wont have to cover the pain in the morning cause in the morning i wont be here