Contol

It's not a disease. I'm not weak its a choice, a decision and mine to make, not yours to judge. You're the ones that make me do this. You all never cared. The things you say make it so much easier. I know what you say and it hurts for a while but then it goes away. My stomach may ache but like the pain you cause me it'll go away. You all wait to watch me do it, you think I've changed. Your all wrong, when your gone i hide and make it all go away, undo what I've done. You cant change it now, dint tell me it pains you to see me like this. You pushed me to this. before you never even looked but now you see me. It hurts me, you don't even know how it feels to hide such a secret. I pray everyday that it stops but than i hear you again and i run and hide and make it better. Its not a disease or a weakness. Its the only way ill ever feel in control and accepted!