The side you've always seen

This is the side of me,
that you've always seen,
the one in which I'm smiling,
To me it's all a dream.

Now you think this is all a lie,
and that I'm never happy,
theres something you don't understand,
it's why lately I've acted so crappy.

I've told you everything I could,
and to that I hope you understand,
but don't be upset while thinking,
that I'm never happy.

You've given me reason to smile,
and laugh like it's for real,
and while I whisper in your ear,
I'll tell you how I feel.

"Yes I do get sad, And cry basically everyday. And theres times I smile, and pretend it's all OK. I know you now know that this is never real.But being around you gives me something, Extra to which I feel. You do Make me smile, And laugh until I cry, Yes I am admitting, Theres sometimes I don't wish to die.I do get happy, and happiness is which I feel, but don't be scared off,When hurt is what I feel..."

Now you know the truth,
I'm not always sad,
A friend is all i need,
and sometimes I'll be glad.