To The Greatest Mother.. with love

Dear Mother...
I found how stupid i was to omit
And after all to forget
All that happy moments
When we were together.. dear mother

Tears are falling down
When i remember how i made you feel down
My heart just tears out
When i remember how i made you cry
Just if time goes back, to change everything I'd try.. dear mother

Its a whole three months now
Since i left you behind
Since i faded away.. you didn't know how
I heard you tried to find
Me, your son, but i just kept trying to hide

I didn't mean to be so hardhearted
I didn't mean to treat you like you're nothing
Then leaving you behind without telling where i am heading
But after all.. i knew you were every thing to me... dear mother

Every word you said and i ignored
Could change my whole life
That life which was ruined
Just cause i am without you..dear mother

You were leading me to the right way
And i just kept pushing you away
But after all I've seen in the real world
I have no words left for My heart to say
How much i miss a hug from you.. dear mother

And now all i wanna say
The thing i am believing in more every day
That i am so sorry
And that i do miss you much... dear mother.

But its so hard to say i am sorry
After all i did
I cant believe i made you worry
But this is the way i chose.. dear mother

I know now it all over
And i cant go back home
So all i will do is just to roam
Dreaming of seeing you again.. dear mother

~*~ I know that its sorta a prose more than a poem but i hope that it will carry the words i couldn't say through the distance to the greatest woman I've seen in my whole life the woman i didn't know that shes such a rare diamond till i lost her.
Well... mom i have to say that i am sorry but after all i cant back home mom cause this is the way i chose. ~*~

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