I'll cry at my own funeral

Watching down I see it,
What they don't want me to see.
A room full of misery
Pain caused by me.

The only time they'll cry in public,
And not feel ashamed
United in their grief
Comforting each others pain.

I'll join them in their mourning
I'll cry with them each tear
I'll cry at my own funeral
And then leave them all here.