DAD i didnt want you being the reason i die

Dad how could you do this to me ?
you lied about the email address
you lied about coming to my party
all you do is lie to me
you told me you didn't want to talk to me
i dont understand what you want !!!!
you drag me around
like a baby with a toy
on the ground
on the bed
on the porch
on the chair
in the air
I'm not a useless baby toy
you knew what i was going to do
and why i was going to do it
the reason was you !!!
you wanted me to
and i knew that
so i didn't do it
because i didn't want u to be happy
i didn't want u to be the reason
The reason i died
you hurt me more u know
you knew i would
you knew i could
you knew i should've
but you're not worth dieing over
you not even worth being in my mind
i didn't want you being the reason
the reason i died

*this is for my dad. he is an idiot anymore. he lied to me and gave me the wrong email.he lied when he said he would come to my 10 year old party.so know i hate him and now i fight with him all the time.even when he comes to my house