All of the pain

When i was young,
all i did was laugh and smile,
none of it was fake

now i am 17,
so much hate,
anger through out me,
tears are always rolling,
when everyone has gone away,
the smiles are there,
and the fake laughs,
everyone says
I'm such a happy girl,
little do they know,
whats going on deep inside,
the hurt,the pain, the hell that i feel,
my only friend left,
is that little razor blade,
my favourite is the sharp one,
that cuts the pain away,so deep it does go,
pouring out my bloody,
i just wish one day,
my soul would float away,

i am all alone,
nobody cares,
they just watch as I'm fading,
just stopping and staring,
i told my old friend,
i couldn't cope,
all she said was
remember your a mistake
my mum never wanted me,
thats why i got adopted,
it hurts me so much,
its torn me apart,
that my parents never loved me,
and no one ever will,

why doesn't anyone ever get to know me,
why do they just judge,
calling me a loser,
I'm dying inside,
my heart is broken,
i used to think i was an angel,
but i guess i never was,

i am a young girl,
full of pain and hate,
wishing to leave,
and go to a better place