It never Ends

It never ends. It just goes on and on
The longing ,the loneliness, the loss it's so strong
I yearn to feel better to live normally
But what is life alone? What is there without you and me?

I know all the things I have to do
Daily I plough through them and I waste time too
Gone is that zest and hunger for life
I'm a simple girl all I needed was to be your wife

The tears keep on flowing. I'm trying so hard
In this fetid swamp of loneliness I fight for each yard
I battle each wave as it rolls on by
It would be so easy to give up and not try

Few understand the enormously mammoth task
To keep moving forward. "You're over it ?" they ask
OVER IT!!! They obviously have no idea
Of the all consuming void I've lived in this past year

Don't get me wrong I am not wallowing in it
I'm fighting and battling the sorrow each minute
All is not totally bad and I have moments of happiness
But deep in my core that's overshadowed by absolute loneliness

No doubt all will be fine one day down the track
But I'm changed forever there's no going back
Back to the times when I just burst with happiness back to when
I was complete
with a son and a husband Not just memories of them