Wrong Lane

Time will not erase my pain
Because I'm lost down the wrong lane
i wish i could just turn around
but I'm to lost and cant be found

i try my hardest to scream out
but no one can hear me and I'm full of doubt
I've been lost for to long
but i know what Ive done was wrong

why cant you hear me?
this is not how i want it to be
but i am the only one to blame
my family thinks of me as nothing but shame

i know i can prove them wrong
but i know that it will take to long
so i will just give up right now
i cant change because i don't know how

i feel so low
even tho i don't let it show
i just want someone to care
i don't feel any love i always feel so bare

I've resorted to things to make it not so hard
but no matter what i do I'm still stuck with this shitty card
I've tried to drink away the pain
but when I'm done I'm even further down the wrong lane

I've tried to cut my hurt away
but it comes right back the next day
so i cut it in again, this time more deep
but that pain i still must keep

so i take a hit out of that bowl
now my head is gonna roll
i don't care about anything at all
but when I'm back i wont feel so tall

nothing ends the pain for good
but i really wish it would
will i always have to feel this way?
wont it go away just for a day?

i don't want to feel like this
why cant i feel everyone else's bliss?
what did i do to be this way?
i hope that some day I'll be OK

i don't want to hurt any more
but my heart has broken down to the core
can't someone fix it?
cant someone help me just a bit?

I want to be like everyone else around me
and live a normal life, isn't that how it should be?
but I'm stuck right here
and i have one last thing thing to say my dear

i don't want to live how i have been
i don't want to be lost on the lane of sin
i just want you to care and love me to
i hurt so much and i just wish you knew