That was beautiful. I was about to quote the last two lines of the first stanza because they're so honest and amazing. I discovered as I continued to read that the whole poem is strikingly honest and so real. I'm blown away, this is possibly the best poem I've read in a while. Thank you.
I am depressed after reading this poem b/c I have been through a "phase" as my parents called it that was just like this! But now I just kinda go with the flow! I do like this poem though and kudos to you on being able to express those feelings in a poetic manner!