My Suicide

I'm sorry if I seem kind of cliche.
This note is meant for you on my dying day.
I'm sorry to say that I'll have to leave.
I'm just doing something that I really need.
The pain I kept inside kept growing and didn't stop.
Finally I couldn't take it because it hurt a lot.
I guess you can say this is a poem for good-bye.
I'm telling you that at least I tried.
I recall the confusion that I caused you.
And I'm sorry for ever loving you, too.
You were the person that I cared for the most.
I didn't mind that you hadn't cared for me, though.
Now, I hope it's easier that I'm gone.
I wouldn't have to think about you moving on.
The state of mind I was in was the craziest ever.
The path I was walking was always so unclear.
There's only one place where I knew I'd find peace.
It was beyond the grave, where I could fly with ease.
I was told that a little pain would get you far.
Forget it... for too long I've been going to war.
I had to just let go fo my bottled emotions.
When I released it, I had humongous explosions.
I realized how stupid I have truly become.
How could I have been in love, when I'm only this young?
To you, forget the promises we've ever made.
They meant nothing, I risked it all and fully paid.
I'm through trying to express what I felt.
I couldn't play the cards that Fate had dealt.
I've given up now so that we'd both be free.
I've let go of you, like you had for me.
I've thought for a while that we'd be together.
I HOPED, and things went opposite from better.
I made a wish that we could start back at one.
To the days when I was raining and you were my sun.
I wanted so bad, for us to be more than friends.
But wanting caused me pain in the end.
I can't believe that it would end like this.
Saying good-bye without even a kiss.
I hope from this day you wouldn't be stupid.
Don't make the mistake of dying for love... like I did...