Two Nights

Late at night I sit up near the phone
Waiting and wishing you would call
And yet I hear no ring or sound
I glance upon my wedding gown

The one we bought and I will wear
On a sunny day so warm and fair
And yet I feel you should be here
And my face drips down a silent tear

I sit up now so cold and scared
I's been two nights, you aren't there
No single call or a message sent
On where you are, or where you went

I stand up now to get dressed
Heart beating loudly in my chest
I feel it now, something is wrong
The rain hits my window very strong

I walk into the darkest night
And take another step into my life
I wipe up the tears that sting my face
As my mind now bids my heart to race

I drive quickly on the slippery street
My hands grip the wheel so very weak
I passed by everywhere we know
And every place I felt you would go

The rain it hits the windshield hard
My feelings and my heart are scarred
No body knows now where you are
But I feel you are not very far

My hair is wet, and voice is harsh
I stop and get out of the car
And run into the nearest store
They look and they say no more

No body listens to my voice
I'm crying without any choice
No body listens to my screams
It's like I am not there it seems

Suddenly I feel so very warm
Walking out into the storm
And then I see it. So much blood
I grip and fall down in the mud

It looks so old and dried away
As if I was bleeding for a day
And yet I still don't understand
Why there is blood on my own hand

I run into the maple wood
As fast as my young, slim legs could
Until I reach a beautiful place
Looking at the most familiar face

There you were, my love, my man
Crying as hard as any other can
Leaning over a body full of art
The scenery simply struck my heart

I was about to run into your arms
To tell you that you're safe from harm
Then yell at you for leaving me here
Until I walked so very near

I saw a young girl, pale in face
So beautiful, so put in place
With redness on an off-white dress
Her hair so sweet and such a mess

Yet she was sleeping, eyes were closed
With a perfect and yet tiny nose
And then I realized from your very call
She wasn't breathing, not at all

I bent down near you, you ignored
If you noticed me I wasn't sure
You didn't move or say hello
Something that I should've known

My heart it broke upon the floor
I couldn't speak nor move no more
I can't believe that I was blind to see
That the young girl lying down was me

And that was I, so still and dead
Your hands shook, and touched my head
And then I slowly heard you say
Words I thought would never come my way

"It's my entire fault you are laying here
You are so dead but I feel you near
I cannot live without you, I know
Oh please baby, please don't go!!"

My heart it stopped I felt so weak
I screamed and cried and tried to speak
"I'm here my love; I am still here my dear!!
I knew it...I know you just couldn't hear

You went into your pocket, found a knife
And told me you were to take your life
I tried to stop you, I squeezed you tight
And screamed into the lonely night

"Please baby, stay, live a happy life
I begging you here not to die
I am with you here, can't you see!
Live not for yourself, but also me!"

But yet it still plunged your heart
Tearing your inside soul apart
"I would stay alive for you but still
Baby without you, there is no will"

I cried and watched you suffer there
Lost in the world without a care
As your soul left, your body passed
Something I always thought would last

I sit up now so cold and scared
It's been two nights, you aren't there
No single call or a message sent
On where you are, or where you went