Pop

When I found out
I didn't understand
it's like I went numb

When I found out
I barley cried
I just get to my room and sat down
Out of pure shock

When I found out
I was so mad at God
I used his name in vein

When I found out
it was a beautiful day
but it was a dark day to me

I found out you died
about 12pm that day
That day was July 10th
The day I wasn't there
holding you hand

The day of your funeral
other dark day of my life
that same and went

I told my mom I was scared
it was my first funeral
and for someone that I cared for

Seeing you there
it finally shoot through my head
The thought of you dead

The numb feeling
I had a week before
Went away so fast
as I fell to the floor
weak and sad

My uncle turned to me
picked me up and said
Julie who don't have to do this
you can just go home

I stayed though
and I meet people I didn't know
hearing them say sorry and how much they cared.

I miss you pop
I miss you with all my heart
and now look what I have been doing...I'm a cutter now

I hope you are not disappointed
in me, I truly don't want you to be