Crimson tears falling down my cheek
Moistened words I cannot speak
Brown eyed crystals drop to the ground
Fall and splash without a sound
Eyelashes clump as I blink
One by one my tears will sink
Softened pain dripping out my eyes
Don't worry, I'm not crying,
I'm vomiting from my eyes.
No one can hear my silent cries
My heart slowly breaks
It slowly dies.
I laugh and smile
When I frown I'm asked what's wrong
I say "nothing", smile and act in denial
I lie about my true feelings everyday
My happiness and soul continuing to decay.
It's not like you care anyways
You silently tell me this
When your eyes look my way
My foolish thoughts
Pretending I didn't care
Only pain is what life has brought
Nothing in this world is fair
I'm insecure, suffering and in pain
I hate myself, everything I am,
I'm so ashamed.
I should be myself I know that for sure
But when I'm gone there won't be a "myself" anymore.
It's better for you and for me
You'll finally be happy
When you rid of me, you see.
Words hurt you know
So shut your mouth I don't want to hear you anymore.
You consume me with your selfish words
I try to let go of it
I try to tell myself I don't care
But in the inside I know it's not true
I'm lying to myself,
And it's all because of you.
