Best Friends, what happened?

Best friends we once were,
keeping each other's back,
But when you found out that I couldn't be mean,
I'd go back up on the clothes rack.

I don't know what I did, or said,
But I do know that I don't deserve this,
I keep praying and begging God to change you,
But apparently the will is not His.

I said to Him I would change myself,
I would give everything up,
I don't know if He heard me or just didn't answer,
But now I feel like a lost little pup.

Wondering from stranger to stranger,
Begging for something I know they can't give,
I know that it's only you that I can be friends with,
It's only with you that I can live.

I know that I will learn to move on in life,
It just might take me a few years,
To learn the ways without you,
And without you, face my fears.

This truly is how I feel:
Because I lost you and your trust,
It is myself that I must kill,
To become in the wind a piece of dust.

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