Hell on earth

I feel like dying
I'm even crying

If not for the wine i drank
My emotions would have sank

To the bottom of the sea
Where they cannot be

With no way to express
They would be such a mess

I'm depressed
And i know why
Someone making me feel
Like i should die

But I'm stupid
I let it get to me
Thinking about it constantly
Wishing that i shouldn't be

Thinking of death
And ending it all
Why bother standing?
When its easier to fall

Lost direction
I see no reason
It may be Christmas
But its just a season

Sometimes it think
Why bother going on
Things just get to much
And I'm not that strong

But not even strong enough
To decide to fall
Instead i exist
To take it all

To be sad
To feel pain
To be lost
But to still remain

What i have is barley enough
Though more than some may
But that is no reason
For me deciding to stay

What i don't have
There are many others who may
But it is enough to make me
Not want to live another day

To release myself from this anger
To release myself from this pain
To remove myself from this world
And find another place to lay

Six foot deep
Under the cold ground
I can feel nothing
I can hear no sound

I'm not alive
Merely a memory
I'm in the past
And have no future

Never felt so strong about something
As that i do now
Never thought i would ever think
About ending my life somehow

But i guess life is just a b***h
That will f**k you over and over
Some people will do anything they can
To make you wish your life was over