No Longer Void of Emotion

After so many years, I allowed myself to trust.
I decided to follow my heart and ignore my fear.
I let myself love you, ignoring the fact that our love was impossible.
I let my guard down after so many years of building it.

Now, the pain stabs my heart as I try to ignore it.
I try to rebuild my shield, yet I'm no longer void of emotion.
I'm no longer able to numb the ache in my heart.
I'm no longer able to shut the world out and pretend.

I've allowed myself to slowly destroy my shielding masterpiece.
I've allowed myself to love someone like I never have before.
Weak, I'm no longer able to rebuild my brick wall.
I'm no longer able to run from the truth.

Fragile and heartbroken, I've learned my lesson for the last time;
I've been dissapointed on one too many occasions.
I've learned that guys are not to be trusted.
Weak and heartbroken, I'm forced to return my heart to stone.