Battle against the blade

by Roxy   Dec 9, 2005


Sometimes the hurt
eclipses the heart
it burns like a wildfire
shredding you apart.

As i scream out for help
begging on my hands and knees
nobodies listening
and everyone leaves.

I want my salvation
i want all my pain to end
i want all the gaps and cracks
in my broken heart to mend.

i want to feel the redemption
but not the bloody kind
i want the kind that will give me peace.
and a clear state of mind.

i don't want to lose every battle
and lose every war
i want to feel the safeness
i want to feel secure.

i don't want to be addicted
to making myself feel the blade
that stupid bloody razor...
or the scars it has made.

i want to be healed and forgiven
i know Ive done wrong
but please forgive me and understand
Ive been broken for so long.

I've forgotten the feeling
of being loved
my heart has become numb
from being pushed and shoved.

The striking pain
and the sleepless nights
they always make me wonder
why i even try to fight.

But I'm going to do it
ill get through it
I'll stay Strong and keep going
day by day knowing
that my scars will fade
and my victory will be made
because i wont lose another battle
against the blade.

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  • 18 years ago

    by Kathrynn

    Wow..
    i have to tell you, i don't know what made me come look at your poem, i don't usually respond to quotes like that, but i am so glad i did
    you are a talented writer, and i totally admire your strength in trying to give this up- it's a hard struggle, i've been there
    but, if you think you can win the fight, all the more to you
    you're stronger than i'll ever be, just for saying it out loud
    good luck, and keep writing!!

    kathrynn

  • 18 years ago

    by EssenceOfLace

    I thought this poem was very very very very good...wow it was written so well, the perfect words were used, and it has related so much to what ive gone through in like 2 years. yes, sadly, ive had my battles against a blade, but ive been winning everyone for about 10 months which is awesome cuz i lost everyone for about a year and a half...but its over now...i hope youre okay, you did a beautiful job..i gave it a 5

  • 18 years ago

    by EssenceOfLace

    I thought this poem was very very very very good...wow it was written so well, the perfect words were used, and it has related so much to what ive gone through in like 2 years. yes, sadly, ive had my battles against a blade, but ive been winning everyone for about 10 months which is awesome cuz i lost everyone for about a year and a half...but its over now...i hope youre okay, you did a beautiful job..i gave it a 5

  • 18 years ago

    by BleedingAngel

    Wow what a painful and so well written poem, great flow and rhyming, I just love it....It's like you have written this poem with my words...
    Cool your name is Stelmack, why did you change it?? You know, we are the only family in the world whos lastname are spelled Stelmach, so I guess we are related =0) That's kinda funny, don't ya think?? I know I have family in Australia too...

    Much Love Sabrina

  • 18 years ago

    by xEmmax

    Wow, excellent poem!! i loved it, really well written. 5/5,
    take care,
    xxEmmaxx

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